New start (kind of)

Day one of being a 32-year-old.

Nothing has changed.

1) I am still as crazy as ever.
Judging by the fact that I have now sorted my iternary for my trip to Hong Kong, starting from home.
I finish work on Friday at 1700.
My flight is 2100.
According to guidelines from airports, you should be at the airport 3 hours prior to your departure time for international flights.
That’s not going to happen because it means that I need to be at the airport at 1800.
Admittedly door to door on a taxi it takes about 45 minutes, but since I am travelling alone, I am going to get public transport, and it is going to take a little bit more than that.
I’ll probably be about 1900 by the time I get to Heathrow.
I would have checked in already, and it’s only a matter of a bag drop, but if I want to factor in some shopping time, I am going to have to move fast because the security is REALLY tight recently.
I will make it to my flight though, I just don’t know how long I’ll get for shopping.
I land at 1645 the next day (saturday) in Hong Kong, and I think I am being whisked away for dinner already.
And I am fully booked for the Sunday and Monday to meet up with people, as well as Tuesday lunch time and Wednesday dinner.
Thursday midnight I am flying to Seoul, which means I have to be at the airport on 17th evening and I won’t be back in Hong Kong until the 25th midnight… and I have already gotten plans for dinner on 25th evening.
Somewhere somehow I need to find time to go and get a new pair of glasses (Because optians in England just tries to sell you everything), and also do a little bit of shopping and visit a few people that are too fragile to go anywhere.
Hong Kong is not a big place, but it is still a nightmare to get anywhere if you don’t know where you are going.

2) I still drinks too much alcohol.
Well.
I personally think I don’t, but apparently according to quite a few people, I do.
Just because I am an Asian female and I know my limit, doesn’t mean that I drink too much if you can’t hold your alcohol.
It is true that Asians (less in Thai and Indians) has ADH1C rather than the ADH1B gene, which means that they are less able to metabolise alcohol.
In my case, I don’t think I have that problem because one of the signs is facial flushing (and sometimes even the body) and I have never had the ‘glow’ before.
I think for an Asian female I drink quite a bit, mainly because I actually like the taste of alcohol, and the fact that I have built up my alcohol tolerance throughout the years (from the moment I hit double digit when it comes to my age), when I think I am just hitting the ‘merry’ line, a lot of people are already drunk.
Half a bottle of wine during a meal is normal for me.
A full bottle is more like what usually happens.
I have been to dinner with a friend and between the two of us we had 3 bottles, plus cocktails beforehand and dessert wine afterwards.
AND on top of that, we were giving a glass of Port each, because we couldn’t make up our minds what we want for dessert and we were debating about the Port.

3) I eat too much food.
I love food too much to stop.
I am not going to give up on a burger because it’s fattening.
I’ll have a salad the next day.
I can cut down on carbs but you can’t stop me eating pasta.
And if I have a spoon and a tub of Nutella in my hands, you better just walk away because I wouldn’t have time for anything or anybody BUT the tub of Nutella.
And this then leads to…

4) I am too fat for Asian standards.
I swear to God female in Hong Kong has a body mass index that is below 18.5.
I saw the perfect come back for this, when people calls me ‘fat’.
“You are a judgemental c**t and shut the f**k up”.
There is another one too, which my NYBB swears by:
“Men are not dogs, even though they might behave like one, but they prefer meats to skin and bones”.
Look.
I have curves.
I have boobs that I have no idea where they come from, and from a logical natural selection point of view, the shape of my body is one that has evolved in the right direction.
The boobs have been balanced out by the size of my bottom.
If your boobs are big and you have no hips, you will fall over. because the weight is at the top. My whole body is at its equilibrium, and I don’t even have to look into getting plastic surgery to ‘maximise’ my ‘assets’ to porn movie standard.
I’d love a few more inches when it comes to my height of course, but it’s not something that I can control, and it can be dealt with on an ad hoc basis when it comes to the situations.
Because of the ‘excellent’ balanced of my body shape, I am capable of wearing and walking in heels range from nothing to 8 inches.
if I get to the extreme, it makes me 5 foot 8, practically bringing me to the perfect proportion.
PRACTICALLY.
Just because people in Hong Kong are a bunch of toothpicks (skinny and short), doesn’t mean that it is how people should be.
There is a lot of health risk being skinny, including early dementia, osteoporosis and broken bones, impair immune system, damage fertility and anaemia.
Besides, my Body mass index is still within the normal range, it’s not like I am FAT when it comes to international standards.

5) I still not sure what colour I want for my hair.
I decided I’ll go light during the summer, and go dark during the winter months this year.
I made the decision at the beginning of the year.
When I looked back at my photos this year, my hair wasn’t exactly dark at the beginning of the year, because I have had high lights put in, and it was definitely blond in February and March, through to April and May.
By the time it got to June, my hair was practically white, or as they called it, platinum blond.
I went for a slight grey-ish look when it got to the height of the summer – July, August and September.
And I only got back to the dark side at the beginning of this month.
I missed the red and the brown when my hair was light, but now that it’s the honey tear colour, I miss the blond.
Last year I took it to the extreme with the red, the blue, the green, the pink, the blond, the purple and the dark brown.
This year it’s light and dark.
That’s it.
I don’t know what my plan is yet for next year, but rest assured – it will definitely going to change, I just don’t know which direct yet.

6) I still love Boybands
I think I am at the age where I know exactly what I like and what I want, and boyband is definitely something that I want in my life.
They have beautiful looking human being, happy music, sad music, ballads, dance music, dance routines that you can follow, brainwashing tune, catchy lyrics… or as Hollywood Ending calls it “mind-control post-chorus”.
And it’s the same for Japanese and English.
I don’t know what’s not to like.
People probably know boyband songs, and they just refuse to admit to it.
I am just truth enough to myself and tell the work about it.
This of course leads to…

7) I still sings too loud
I can do it in tune of course, but I can also do it out of tune, which is so much more fun if you can sing.
Singing out of tune when you can sing is one of the best thing that can happen in life, and it really makes you happen because it’s just so silly and it doesn’t matter if you are alone or with your friends.
Admittedly me and Curly LOVE singing out of tune just to annoying people and laugh together.
So many times we have had the same song in our head, we’d sing together at the same time without even getting the tuning right and we’d be in tune.
It’s like we have an agreement without talking about what key to sing “OH HAPPY SHEEP”.

8) I still needs more shoes
Some female like coats (my mother), and some females like handbags (my adoptive sister in New York).
I like shoes.
I don’t know why, I am not sure where it came from, because mummy likes coats the most, then bags, then clothes – shoes is the last thing for her.
In my case, I love shoes and dresses the most. Then coats.
Bags?
As long as I have a few, I am not too bothered.
But shoes? It’s not really something you can share, you kind of need your own no matter what.
A pair of shoes can make a lot of difference in life… I mean, look at Cinderella.
And I know I am going to get told off (and I have been) so many times, but relationships are like buying shoes.
You need to know if it’s fits, you need to know if it’s going to hurt you after a long time in them.
You need to know and make sure that the beginning might be a bit painful and it might rub a bit and give you blister, but once you are comfortable in them, they are going to be good for as long as you want.
And you really need to try it before you buy it.

9) I still love life
To be honest? Loving life only comes along since I broke up with CLEB.
I used to take life for granted.
Everything came to me so easily, and I really didn’t think I have to put much effort in.
When the relationship ended, even though I am not the one who lied and cheated, I still believe that it takes two in a relationship, and if one side fail, the other side should also take some responsibility.
I am not saying I am responsible for the reason why CLEB cheated, because just reading his supposedly ‘apology’ email and the email from 743, neither of them think they are wrong, and they both blamed the fact that it didn’t work out because of me.
I have to admit I never really put in much effort to maintain relationship, and I did take it for granted.
I believe that if the relationship is sturdy enough, it should be easy – and it was easy for me.
In a way, too easy; and it was the way I wanted it.
He was there when I wanted, he wasn’t when I was happy with my friends.
You know how wedding vows have the whole “to have and to hold” and “For better and for worse”?
He was there when “for better”, but he was never there “for worse”, nor did he want me when he needs someone “for worse”. It was always his friends (or so he said).
Maybe he found someone for him when he needs the “for worse” part.
But since I walked out of the relationship, I have treasure life a lot more, where I really do live as if I’d die tomorrow, and Ill have no regrets.
I also put more effort with my friends, both new and old, and I know which one of them will always be there for me.
And those one that only hands around during good times?
I keep them at arms length, and if they want to talk to me, great.
If they don’t, that’s fine by me too.

10) I still go mad when I see Nutella…
Nutella, Ferrero Rocher.
Hazelnut chocolate.
Same thing.
All that jazz.
Give me a box and Ferrero Rocher and I’ll polish it off within seconds.
sometimes it’s just what I need after a bad day.
And Nutella and a spoon, in front of the TV, watching something that I don’t need to use my brain.
OR something really soppy.
With a glass of wine.
That sounds like the perfect evening.
And I am quite tempted to do that…
with my friends.

What songs define the 00s?

The noughties are a funny time.
I was in love with the idea of love, and I was full of love songs, soppy ballads as well as “My heart is completely broken” and full on “I am too good for you and you don’t deserve me” break up songs.

Avril Lavigne falls right into the latter category.
I used to blast Complicated, Skate Boi and Girlfriend at full volume through my headphones and into my ear drums.
Part of me wonders why I am not deaf sometimes.

I was still very much indulging myself in the likes of Boybands (they were everywhere – Backstreet Boys, *NSYNC, 98 degrees, Take 5, O-Town, Boyzone, Caught in the Act, LFO, BBMak, No Authority, Westlife, A1…) and songs like Bye Bye Bye was massive.
I have a whole damn list of Boyband songs that define the noughties for me, but these were (and still are) my favourite:

This I promise you.
Shape of my heart.
Straight through my Heart.
All or Nothing.
Flying with out Wings.

It was also the start of the R’n’B era – not the BoyzIIMen stuff, but R’n’B like Nelly and Alicia Keys.
Fallin’ by Alicia Keys is a classic and I slaved myself in front of a piano trying to learn how to play it.

Savage Garden’s I knew I Love you.
Can’t Fight the Moonlight too, was one of my favourite.

Britney and Christina were still on the chart, even though both of them seemed to be going off the rail (just a bit).

And then Busted and McFly turned up.
They were (still are) fun and they sing about absolutely anything and everything.
Busted has Year 3000 – who doesn’t like Year 3000?
Not the Jonas Brothers version – the original.
Year 3000 is probably one of the songs that were covered a bit too early and a bit too quickly.
The original was released in 2002, Jonas Brothers covered in 2006.
(Okay I lied, because Mr. Brightside was released in 2004 and Mcfly covered it in 2005).
The song that was originally titiled as “Crush and Burn” and was re-named “You Said No”.
Busted also Crashed THE wedding (which one, I don’t know), wrote a love letter to an Air Hostess and sang about Thunderbirds, whilst Mcfly released Star Girl and sang about falling in love with Uranus (how juvenile but how funny), and Five Colours in her Hair.
They also gave the middle finger salute to a bunch of paparazzi and radio people with “One For The Radio”.
(I can go on about this for forever)

And hello Enrique Iglesias with Tired Of Being Sorry.
That song rocks.
And Taylor Swift also released “Love Story“, and that song was cute, adorable and just the perfect song to sing at Karaoke (for me).
I don’t want to to call Jason Mraz’ a one hit wanderer but I don’t think you can fault “I’m Yours“.

By mid-noughties, boybands and pop music were faded out by THINGS like Kanye West and things that are similar, so my music collection starts to feature even more heavily on Japanese Pop music, where boybands are still very much a thing.

Arashi debuted in 1999, and even though they were as popular back then as they are now, I still love Sunrise Nippon and Kansa Kangeki Ame Arashi (back then when Sakurai Sho resembled like a member of KAT-TUN than his newscaster-self now).
SMAP had Sekai ni hitotsu dake no hana which recently has been voted number one as the most influential song in Japan.
Tackey and Tsubasa debuted, and I was frantically for weeks learning the dance routine to Yume monogatari (and it has stuck in my head for forever).
KanJani8 released Osaka Rainy Blues, which is still very much one of the most beautiful song that I have ever heard and I love it.
With Nobuta wo. Produce (and the adorable Yuto) came Shuji to Akira, and of course Seishun Amigo that was so over played for many many years (and was still popular after all these years and sang at the countdown last year).

And of course – Real Face by KAT-TUN.

Tokio (Who has been announced as the ambassador as Tokyo 2020 Olympics) released a Sono Fune, which is the theme song for the drama My Boss My Hero.
News released Sayaendou as a six piece band, which is the theme song for One Piece.
Arashi becoming the group that they are right now with Love So Sweet and Happiness.

(I have linked the songs that I think defines the noughties for me)

What songs define the 90s

90s is when I grow up, and growing up in Hong Kong means that I get to listen to all sorts of weird stuff.
I wasn’t a fan of Chinese music except for what my cousin listen to, because she was my biggest influence until I grow up (out?).

The Chinese band I mentioned before, Beyond played a really big part of me growing up.
The lead singer died when I was eight – I kind of knew what ‘death’ meant at that point.
My mother’s oldest brother died of cancer when I was six. I remember sitting in church and swaying my feet on the benches and thinking I have pretty shoes on, and why did I get to stay up past my bedtime.

But that’s besides the point.
I found someone on YouTube who’s put a bunch of songs together into one video.
My favourite song is at 1:02:46.
The official record company has put a playlist up, but most of the songs are actually from after he passed away, so I am not going to bother putting it on here.

For English music, nothing can beats the Hammer.
MC Hammer and his “can’t touch this“.
Disney music started to pop out of nowhere, and they also started to enter the charts.
Songs like A Whole New World, Beauty and The Beast and Colour of the Wind.
And also Can You Feel The Love Tonight.
Prince of Egypt, which was not a Disney movie but a Dreamwork movie – won the best Original Song (written by Stephen Schwartz – who did Pocahontas and went on and did Wicked the musical) with “When You Believe” (sang by Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston).

And whilst we are on Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston…
My All. I have always loved that song. I don’t know why. It’s a really whiny sounding song, but I love the song.

Whitney Houston’s “I’ll always Love You” is a classic.

Random fact: Lots of people in Japan knows this song, but they don’t speak much English. They thought the song was called “Anya” for years because of the Chorus: “ANNNYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, will always love you”.

Everybody knows the words to Fresh Prince of Bel Air too.
And watch it religiously on TV.
(RIP uncle Phil)

R’n’B vocal groups were also massive.
Groups like BoyzIIMen, All-4-One, who had hits likes “End Of The Road”, “I’ll Make Love To You” and “I Swear” are also a big hit.
I Swear was played so much during the 90s when I was growing up, you couldn’t possibly not know the song – it was EVERYWHERE.
And I mean EVERYWHERE.
All My Life by K-Ci and Jojo.
(I have a story behind this, and I will again, put it under “story for another time” when I have time).

And then, the boybands.
OH THE BOYBANDS.
I never liked any of the English Boybands, and my focus has always been somewhere else.
Step By Step by New Kids on the Block.
Quit Playing Games by the Backstreet Boys.
Everybody Backstreet’s Back by the Backstreet Boys.
I Want It That way by the Backstreet Boys.
98 Degrees and their smooth sound that sits between R’n’B vocal and boybands – I Do Cherish You, a song that back then, was my first choice of my first dance in my wedding (That obviously has changed).
(*NSYNC came later, but they were like the rival of the Backstreet Boys and even though they are really good friends, I still don’t like them as much as I do with the Backstreet Boys).
Another boyband (kind of) that was massive in Asia was Michael Learns To Rock (I think they are Danish? If not, they might be Swedish – somewhere from the Scandinavian countries), and That’s Why You Go Away is another song that was over played.

And who will forget Hanson and their “Mmmbop”?
Savage Garden’s “I want you”, contrasting with “Truly, Madly, Deeply”.

But nothing was over played (and overrated for that matter) as much as “My Heart Will Go On”.
English version, Mandarin Version, Cantonese Version, Japanese Version.
Before “My Heart Will Go On” though, there was “It’s All Coming Back to Me Now”.
Celine Dion was massive, but so was Shania Twain.
From this Moment.
Man I feel like a Woman.
And Gloria Estafani’s Music of my heart (sung with *NSYNC).
Toni Brixton, who once was sane, has an amazing song “How Could An Angel Break My Heart”.
The younger generation was popping up at the end of the 90s too, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Jessica Simpson and Mandy Moore.
But Baby One More Time and Genie In A Bottle were the two songs that were everywhere.

And with movie soundtrack, there is also “I Don’t Want To Miss A Thing” by Aerosmith. The movie was shit (so was Titanic, thinking about it), but the song was great (and I am still not a fan of Ben Affleck).
Another bad movie but good soundtrack, “I Believe I Can Fly” by R Kelly.
Another one: Kiss Me by Six Pence None Richer.

And don’t forget “Don’t Speak” by No Doubt.

Of course, there are songs that I heard cover versions of, and thought was from before the 90s.
Like More Than Words.

90s was the time where I fully engaged myself into Johnny’s Entertainment.
Kinki Kids debuted in 1997, with Garasu no Shounen, a song that I still listen to religiously, knows all the words to (obviously) and knows the dance routine for the chorus.
Two years later they released a song called Flower (and they recently sayid that it’s one the worst songs to sing live, because of the range the song covers… a bit like Dancing Queen by Abba).
Of course, I mentioned Kimi wo omou toki before, and that too, was from the nineties.

I can’t really post the original music videos when it comes to Johnny’s Music because of the very strict copyright law in Japan (I have been lucky with Weekender, Real Face and also Koi wo Shiranai Kimi e – but with Garasu no Shounen and Flower, not so much), but I have a copy of it if anybody wants it.
It’s from the 90s and the quality is bad, and the resolution isn’t that great either.

I also want to mention Ricky Martin “Living La Vida Loca” and Enrique Iglesias’ Bailamos.
Ricky Martin and his hypnotic hip (Hip-notic?) and Enrique Iglesias’ sultry voice.
Cannot get enough of the latter one. Who cares if I don’t understand Spanish?

Memories

I caught up with my Japanese TV and I watched this month’s episode of Shounen Club Premium.

I didn’t think it’d be anything that moves me, because I know they were going to make gyoza (dumplings).
However.

When they talked about News going from 6 people to 4 people, Shige’s little speech made me cry.
All over again.
He said it felt like he’s betrayed a lot of people, and he promised it would not happen again.
And even Massu tear’ed up.
And watching Massu and Shige watching the clip, that made me cry too.

The other thing I did not expect was the second part of the programme.
They did a review of the KAT-TUN 10K concert.
It is their first concert with just 3 of them.
And the last one.

I cried on and off for the 15 minutes that they talked about the concert.

Koyama mentioned that he can’t make to the show, but Massu went to see them in Osaka.
Massu mentioned that it brought back lots of memories, because they sang a lot of the old songs.
They started the show with ‘Gold’, and I knew that too, because Yuya wrote about it.

KAT-TUN has always based their shows round pirates and glamour.
Their third concert, is called Kaizokuban, which is Pirate ship in Japanese.
Their third album is called ‘Queens of Pirates’, their fans – Queens of Pirates.
There was a shot when Ueda said to the crowd ‘This is our last sail!’.
That brought me to tears straight away.
So much nostalgia.
They showed clips of other songs like Real Face, Birth, In Fact…

Nakamaru mentioned that they have been used to four people on stage, and it is really hard to fill in the gap.
They didn’t use any back dancer.
The stage was them, and the front of a pirate ship, with LED lights in the shape of a ship’s wheel.

Then they a clip of Harukana Yakusoku (a distance promise).
It weird to hear 3 people singing a song that I am so used to hear six voices.
I have to pause the programme to gather myself.
Even whilst I am writing this, it’s making me tear up.

They sang their first (and last – for now) song as a trio.
Boku no yume, kimi no yume (my dream, your dream).
It was the only new song in their 10th anniversary album, and even though that song doesn’t mean as much to me as it does to them, it still makes me cry.

From the moment this concert finishes, KAT-TUN will go into ‘charging’ time. During this time, we are going to grow as a person, and become better person individually, to make more people smile. We will be back.
– Ueda Tatsuya

When we are back together after we grow as individuals, I believe things are going to be even more interesting than ever. When the time comes, please come back and we can party together.
– Nakamaru Yuichi

KAT-TUN is made up of K: Kamenashi Kazuya. A: Akanishi Jin. T: Taguchi Junnosuke. T: Tanaka Koki. U: Ueda Tatsuya. N: Nakamaru Yuichi. We debuted as a group with six people. Many things has happened, including 3 people leaving, we are grateful for the journey and we have come so far.
– Kamenashi Kazuya

Nakamaru rushed to the other side of the stage to hug Ueda after Kamenashi made his speech and he joined in afterwards.
Nakamaru was in tears.
So were the two of them, but it wasn’t as obviously as Nakamaru.

They closed the show with Greatest Journey, and Peaceful Day.

They were meant to leave at separate gate at the end of the show, but they didn’t.
They left together.

“I love you all, and I love KAT-TUN”.

You promised to be back.
I’ll always wait.

Day 12 with crutches with knee brace, seeing Miss. S and my thoughts on boybands (256 days)

I am very much still immobile.
But I went to see Miss. S today.
She is not well at all.
You can really see it took a toll on her face.
Helping her take photos of her furniture made me realise how much problem a job can cause you to loose yourself.
I am definitely thinking of moving away from my job because it is what made me decided that seeing a therapist is good idea.

My thoughts on boybands.
I have thought about this long and hard.
Boybands should not be labelled as boybands.
This was pointed out back in the early 90s.
They are male a cappella group, as much as BoyzIIMen and All-4-One are.
They can all sing amazingly and dancing was a bonus.
Dancing really just came along when it gets to 90s, it’s some leftover from the 80s.
Most of them are also song writers. They might not have written their first album, but throughout the years, they wrote more and more songs on their albums, and the band’s real personality starts to show through.
The word “band” means they play instruments.
A lot of them do play instruments, but they don’t perform their songs with instruments like McFly and Busted (or as they are known now as McBusted) of Hanson and The Moffatts.

Take NKOTB.
Jonathan Knight has an amazing voice, and his solo album was amazing.
Joey McIntyre also released solo albums.
They could all sing, because they all came from a singing background.

Take That.
Gary Barlow, Robbie Williams and Mark Owen have a great solo career.
Gary Barlow and Robbie Williams still have a successful solo career.
Gary Barlow is an amazing pianist. He proved that every year at the New Year’s Eve concert.

Boyzone.
Yes they sounded horrendous right at the beginning but they have improved so much from the beginning.
If they can’t sing, Andrew Lloyd Webber would not choose them to sing “No Matter What”.
Stephen Gately was always my favourite.

The Backstreet Boys.
They all sound like angels.
They have since the beginning. Nick struggled in the beginning because he was going through puberty and you can tell so much on the first album.
His voice was like a drug to me, I couldn’t get enough of it.
Except for Kevin Richardson, they all have solo albums.
Nick plays the drums, Kevin was amazing on the piano and the rest of them (and Nick for that matters) plays the guitar and they have done it in many of their shows.
They are still touring as a group, they have an annual cruise and most of all they collaborated with NKOTB and the concert was amazing.
I was right there.

*NSYNC.
I don’t like them as much as the other in comparison, but I cannot deny the fact that JZ Chasez and Justin Timberlake have a really good voice.
Admittedly Justin Timberlake walked away from his pop roots (SHAME ON YOU JT) and started doing hip-hop.
But he can still sing a cappella when he has to.

Westlife.
How can ANYBODY deny the fact that Shane and Mark have one of the most beautiful voice of the British Isles?

Blue.
Why would Elton John want to collaborate with Them to sing one of his most famous songs, “Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Words”, if they weren’t good enough?
And Andrew Lloyd Webber asking Duncan James to sing “I Believe My Heart”?

One Direction.
Liam and Niall both have amazing voices.
Louis and Zayn have very unique voices and though Harry’s got a gorgeous voice, he didn’t know how to use it to it’s full potential when he first started.
These boys weren’t the best when they tried out for X factor.
But when they are together, they were unbeatable.
A champion team is always better than a team of champions.
They have proven that.

Media are the ones that made boybands uncool within UK, because ENGLAND itself cannot produce successful boybands.
The real International boybands of the 90s and 00s are NKOTB, Backstreet Boys and *NSYNC.
They are all Americans.
The ONLY UK boyband that have succeed worldwide success is One Direction.
And that is because everybody – NKOTB, the Backstreet Boys and *NSYNC have opened up the road for them.
Don’t get me wrong, I love the boys dearly – but I can guarantee if the 3 boyband trinity weren’t successful, One Direction will probably not make it as big as they are right now.

Words (272 days)

I am not very good with words. 

I love quoting things to express my feelings. 

Poems and sonnets (Shakespeare is my Kryptonite) and most of all lyrics.

Just so that I can burst into songs. 

 

Recently I have gone back to my roots when it comes to pop music. 

 

Boybands. 

 

I have all these music that I haven’t had a chance to listen to because I keep buying and buying and I am now a supposedly responsible adult. 

 

I was indulging in things that I know too well and was yet to take the leap of faith to listen to something different. 

 

So during the trip to Japan (and since I’ve come back actually) I finally had time to listen to things that might possibly be 5 years old but I haven’t listened to yet. 

Because I need to take a leap of faith. 

That is part of my new year resolution thing. 

 

I have to admit – I was appalled to certain extends with some of the lyrics that was written. 

 

And the there are the ones that are absolutely breathtaking:

 

There’s a numb in my toes standing close to the edge

There’s a pile of my clothes at the end of your bed

As I feel myself fall, make a joke of it all

 

If you’re pretend from the start like this with a tight grip

Then I might miss everything you said to me

I can lend you broken parts that might fits like this

And I will give you all my heart

So we can start all over again

 

It brought me to tears, especially the second one (from Over Again by 1D). 

There was something beautiful about the picture that the words have painted in my head. 

 

Or maybe I’m just a sap. 

 

Secret society of the youth (284 days)

I made a mistake of staying in Tumblr when I was looking for a new iPhone background.